After a series of serious broken heart episodes, I just want to chill out from love and romance for now.
I opted out from playing this silly game because I’m not really good at it. Looking at past results, I think I played terribly. I always ended up becoming game to the players and I get my heart crushed to little pieces like broken glass on the floor every time I fall in love. So, perhaps I shouldn’t fall in love next time.
Let’s face it, majority of men out there just want to play around with a woman’s emotions. Some men do it for money, some men do it for fun, some are just sick in the mind they’d do it to keep a personal score and brag about their conquests to their equally sick friends, and some just for the heck of it.
At the end of the day, none of these sick men care if they break a girl’s heart. They don’t give a damn to what happens as a consequence of their monstrosity. Ugly monsters are what they really are when you remove their face masks at the end of the day.
I’ve decided that I’m not going to invest in my emotion in any man. Not until he has done enough to earn my love and trust, and has given his commitment to a steady relationship with me. I’m not trying to be a tough cookie or want to become a cold-hearted bitch. I’m just protecting myself from those vicious vultures hovering over my head from preying on me.
Hmmm perhaps being a BITCH is not a bad idea either, because in my dictionary, BITCH means Babe in Total Control of Herself.
I realize that no man is really worthy of my tears, and if a man really is, he won’t make me cry except for happy tears.
At the end of the day only the love for God is the only love that will never disappoint me. It is love that is eternal and endless. So, I’m going to retreat from this cruel world and be in love with Him for eternity.